Marlboro Intense

I don't know whether I hate or love this idea.
Rob and I have always wished for shorter cigarettes... the normal ones are just too long... after half of it I don't even wanna smoke anymore.
So now they've brought out Marlboro Intense, little tiny baby cigarettes. I thought, great! Except that it's 25% less tobacco and they only cost 8% less... hmm just another way to make money... i'd say.
But they're also good because you don't even notice you aren't smoking a whole one, plus, you'd be smoking less in total (as if that really matters though...)
So I don't know... mixed feelings..
I won't be buying them anytime soon... Rob has, but that was only a one time thing.
If they cost 3€ that would be absolutely fair, and they would become my new brand.. but they cost 3.80€ and that's a total rip off.
And I wanna stop anyway... haha.

I'm a reborn maggot using germ warfare

Done!
Jeeeez that was more work than I thought. I officially HATE working with fabric. Hard to draw on, hard to cut... just plain annoying. And now I don't even know where to put the patches.


I'm actually quite proud of the cramps one... but hey, the logo isn't THAT hard to do.
I decided against doing the offspring one... when I was like.. 13 and they where my favourite band, I was so good at drawing that offspring skull. I even had a whole scrapbook about them. (Haha, I'm SO going to do a post with that) But I thought nah... too hard at the mo... I'll wait till I get better at this.
So I did another simple one... which I think is still quite effective though. Did this one with a t-shirt pen and highlighters too.. it's a little more obvious here.



Then I thought, hey! That Dead Kennedys symbol would be easy to do! And the patch would go on pretty much anything...
I tried and failed.


It looks okay at first glance, but if you look at the angles of the D... it's totally out of proportion... I should've used a protractor but as if I have one. Plus, that thing is harder to draw than you'd think!

And you'll always be my whore, cause you're the one that I adore

So yeah. Now a little update on my life, and my own endeavours in fashion.
I dreamt last night, that I was at a birthday party, and they were serving these delicious pink drinks, and I got completely smashed.
It was great, only now I've woken up with a longing to get drunk tonight, which I'll probably pursue.
I was wondering the past days what colour to dye my hair next.. since the pink is fading.


Okay, on that picture it looks fine, but trust me, it is.
I was also considering getting v-shaped bangs although everyone is telling me it'll look too "psychobilly" Who gives a toss?
However, then I thought, what the fuck is wrong with me. I don't have enough money to spend 7€ on dying my stupid hair... so I decided to leave it pink for now.
Also, on tuesday I actually went to H&M although I hate it (My sister wanted to) and it was worth it actually, because I bought a skirt and pants for 10€ together, which I am now modifiying. Since I'm also too poor to buy band shirts, or patches or anything with a band name on it I thought it'd be a good idea to fashion my own patches and stuff. I usually draw the t shirts myself, although that doesn't really work when you want white writing on black. So I decided i'd cut white letters out of an old t-shirt and stick them on. Let me tell you, not as easy as it sounds. I haven't done something so fidgety since arts and crafts in kindergarden.
Anyway, heres the result:

I'm an idiot, I should've moves dead more to the right... but whatever. They'll come off anyway, and then I'll do it. Also, one hardly sees it when I'm not holding back the braces but whatever.
Next, I'm making a Cramps patch for the skirt and maybe an Offspring one. Then I thought it'd be cool to write 999 down the side of the pants (The band 999, for those of you who don't know) since people would be confused and wonder whether it's 666 or 999. Then I realized that would be stupid, because I'm not going to walk around with 666 written on my pants. A little sad.
Although, isn't everything i'm doing here quite sad?
*Sigh* It's impossible to get it right! If you buy your clothes you're not a real punk because you've just bought them, if you make your own stuff you're not a real punk because of the time you've invested. It's all quite confusing.
Well at least I can admit that yes, I am trying to be punk. Everyone is, come on. When the get a mohawk, when they get piercings, when they dress in a certain way, of course they're trying to be punk! But of course they could never admit that.
I admit it.
Btw. I just had to think of this looking at the picture... I'm wearing a flannel shirt, I hear they're all the rage these days;

Especially the black, white and red ones. They even sell them at Urban Outfitters for 50$ I heard.
Hahahahahahahahhaha. It sure is funny, because flannel shirts used to be like the cheapest thing you could get, and had NOTHING to do with fashion... everyone even made fun of them.. and now, combine them with leggings and you're a perfect hipster clone.
But hey, finally a trend I approve of. To Rob, flannel shirts have always meant Kurt Cobain, so he likes them. To me, flannel shirts have always meant pyjamas... so I LOVE them! Finally I can go to the supermarket in my pyjamas and be SO fashionable!
Besides, Rob and I have loads because we bought them for 3€ at a cheap shop.. haha.

Another day, something new to get angry about!

So the designer of Comme Des Garcons designed a collection for H&M. So everyone was like, yay! Cheap designer clothes!
Yesterday, the collection was introduced. People crowded in front of the stores an hour before they opened, just to get their hands on some of the stuff.
This girl I don't know, but who is friends with me on Myspace, wrote a bulletin about her experience.. apparently, she arrived 20 minutes after the shop had opened (She was VERY upset about that) and there was nothing left but like 3 blouses and women were elbowing eachother out of the way, carrying enormous stacks of clothes and gathering around salespeople bringing stuff back from the changing rooms like vultures, to grab the last clothes right out of their arms.
The collection was sold out within minutes.

And that was here in cologne. In New York, people crowded in front of the store at 11 pm.
So you're thinking, wow! Those clothes must've really been something... well... haha... see and facepalm:


Yeah. I admit, I don't know much about fashion, but if people camp outside stores for polka dot blouses and canvas slip-on sneakers (costing 60€!!!) then what the fuck is wrong with them?
Seriously.... how were they brought up to have those kind of values? It's ridiculous, pathetic.. disgusting really! And I have vowed to make fun of anyone I see wearing that STUPID polka dot handbag that I swear is completely undisinguishable from anything else at H&M.
Also, I'm not into designer clothes myself, but whenever I've asked friends who are why they wear them, they say: "Because you stand out, because nobody else you know will have them" (although I wonder how Louis Vuitton bags figure in to that...) and my crazy private school friends say: "You wear them to show you can afford them".
Aha. Well in that case, why??!!! This collection is cheaper than the usual Comme des Garcons stuff, and loads of people will have it.... so seriously, why? Because it's so wonderfully beautiful and unique and special? Come on, I dare you, challenge me to recreate those exact outfits from cheap store stuff or make them my self and I guarantee you, I will.
It sickens me, really.

An 18-year-olds probably ridiculous world views

It came to me on the train home from work today. I'm only really writing this to get down an idea that probably many have a had before, but only struck me just now, leaving a "Ping!!" sound ringing in my head.
Those who know me, know I've always been a communist. Haha. An anarcho-communist, to be exact. I'm sorry. It's just what I believe in.
I wish I could leave it at that, but these days, especially kids my age have a tendency to ask why, repeatedly when faced with someone who has distinct beliefs in a political ideology (or anything, for that matter) That's all good and dandy. However, because these are still "beliefs" I don't think I'll ever be able to answer all the whys.
I believe in direct democracy, I believe in the abolition of private property and the state and... ah jeez, I'm not going to list every single thing now. Check out wikipedia if you wanna find out some other things to say i'm stupid for supporting.
And now come the usual arguments. I'm a total ideologist, i'm naive, i'm completely out of my mind. And the mother of all anti-communist arguments:

"Communism is a good idea in theory, but it doesn't work in practice"

EVERYONE says this. It's as if they all got together one night and were like: "Okay guys, this communist thing, not so sure about it... seems kinda evil, can anyone think of something to say to people who advocate this? And then we'll all say it EVERY TIME as if it where the most obvious thing ever!"
Everyone always says this, just to write off the idea, because they don't want to think about it, because so many people ADORE capitalism, and they don't even know it. They just love their ipods.
Well anyway, one thing is true about this statement... it would be a wonder if it ever worked to put communist ideals into practice. In that respect, no, it doesn't work. But that's hardly what they mean. They mean that from history we know the communism would never work. That sentence in itself is a contradiction! The communist governments of the past just didn't carry it out correctly, that's why communist countries tended to go completely totalitarian. They went totally crazy because for them, communism was about control. Only government control.
Plus, they weren't anarcho-communists were they now ;) Government control is hardly their aim. So they can't turn totalitarian. Aha! So what arguments do you have now?

"Yeah I agree Eva, but trust me, it just wouldn't work!"

And that's when I had my idea. Yes, it certainly wouldn't. It is impossible for communism to work, if capitalism exists. Because of the way most humans are.
I tried to prove this by relating to divided Germany. The people in the west were all like: "Look at us, we're SO american, living in the lap of luxury, we're free, we're rich" and the people in the east were like: "I wanna have that and not have to wait 3 years to be able to drive a car made of CARDBOARD! I don't want to drink Vita Cola, I've seen Coca Cola now and it seems so much more glamourous"
Plus, the DDR was also going the totalitarian way. Impinging on human rights, censorship... basically things that you KNOW I think are terrible.
However, those in favour of the DDR understood that in many ways they were superior to the west, their values for example. Hard and honest work (although, that sounds wrong... I guess harder is more fitting) family values!, no status symbols... but of course that's not for everyone.. haha.
ANYWAY!
This has turned into a huge rant, and I'm quite embarassed to post it. Because I know that I've probably got a few things wrong, and that some of my arguments can be defeated very simply and obviously. That's why I want to state; I don't think I'm some visionary, I don't think I and only I have the ideal ideals and that I can't be wrong. Completely to the contrary. I'm eighteen years old, I certainly don't know anything, and believe me, I'm well aware.
This is just a modest account of my beliefs, at the moment. If you disagree, or if I've said something really stupid please do tell me, I want to queston my views, I want to learn, so that maybe someday my ideas won't be as half-baked.
So go ahead and tell me how thick I am, I will surprise you with my insight... haha.

Oh my Bama

Victory!
This guy is now our president!

I'm not miss political myself, so this might be the first and last political post you ever see on this blog. (Although, it can hardly be called political.. we all know the us presidential elections are more of a beauty pageant type thing.)
I'm afraid many people were under the impression I supported Mc Cain and Sarah Mooseburger Palin because I mentioned now and then some good points about him. Really guys, what do you take me for?
Anywaaaay, I am slightly hungover at the mo, so don't expect anything too deep here, but something annoyed me today, and i'm afraid I will have to rant.




I like it how it says: Reading Now (1) so very mockingly... so... patronising! Like: "Oh she's reading ONE book, bless her, how dear"
Because now everyone wants to be über-intellectual and read Metamorphosis, Anna Karenina and Thus Spoke Zarathustra at the same time. Yes you damn wannabe-über-intellectuals, who make fun of me because my favourite book is 1984. "Ahahaha how very quaint! I believe I read that when I was 11 and a half... no... wait... just 11! Ahahaha".
Screw you guys! You're no better than the people who order shortened audio versions of classics, just to get the gist and be able to keep up with the conversation. That disgusts me. However, I'm also thoroughly annoyed by the people who brag about reading 4 books at a time. Probably something reminiscent from their childhood, when their mommy used to tell them how proud she was of them and praise them for reading. Well guys, I'm afraid that changes once you grow up. Reading is a hobby, a pastime, something to do in the holidays. Not a scholarly pursuit that will make you part of the intellectual elite. I for one, do NOT respect people for claiming they're reading 4 books at a time. I say, if you don't read anything except magazines you're probably not very smart or interesting to talk to, however, if you do read, it doesn't mean you're unbelievably wise and eloquent and superior to all of us.