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Bla

Hey Robin from IOE, hope this proves i'm real!

The Shoes

Behold this shoe.
The mother of all shoes.
The GOD of all shoes!
The almighty ruler over all that is shoe!!!



Hehe... I just really like it.
Okay, not so impressive huh.

Weeell, after weeks of contemplation, I bought these off ebay. I love them so much I might also be getting them in black.

I'm sorry, I'm being very consumerist... but I just love these shoes.

Anyway, nothing else is new. Nothing to rant about or anything.
I have new hair, but nothing worth showing. Vera however, has pretty cool new hair:

We're seeing UK SUBS on Wednesday, yay! Except that they're dicks who say they dislike their young fans because they "weren't there" when it all happened or whatever. But who cares, I guess this'll have to be the first concert in my life that I'm actually going to for the concert, not backstage.
Whhhoooooa that makes me sound like a slut! Okay, to set this straight, I've NEVER done anything with bands where I got backstage. It's purely to talk, drink, muck about. Just to meet them as people.
In fact, most concerts I've been to, I hated the concert part. I mean, let's face it, it's hot, it's sweaty, it's loud, you get pushed over every 30 seconds (if you're a girl my size anyway), if you try to mosh, you WILL hurt yourself and you WILL lost your shoes, and worst of all: THERE'S ALWAYS A GUY WITH DREADLOCKS IN FRONT OF YOU!

In the days where you were helpless and poor I just liked you more

Oh hai.
I haven't done a proper post in a while, ya know, with important, life or death kinda stuff like my current hair color.

Anyway, christmas was super, check out my facebook for photos. Haha, it would be so funny if I wrote what I got.
I got Reading Lolita In Tehran, Persepolis, The Kite Runner, The sequel to that of which I can't remember the name and you couldn't give two fucks anyway so I'm not going to go look from my mommy, candles on a tray (I don't know) from Susanne, an amazon voucher from Robs mommy, neon pink tights and houseshoes (or I belive the word is slippers) from Kate, Lush crap from Vera (my fave! Let Them Eat Cake, Jungle and Snow Fairy) and from everyone else moniiiieees!
But the best present, is yet to be given. It's from Rob, and it's a tattoo!
This is what I'm getting:

But I'm not 100% sure how correct it is, so being myself, I don't go to Rob's school and ask a teacher, I write an email to Carl Zimmer.... yes, a science author for the New York Times who's published like 20 books. Haha. I'm sooo looking forward to seeing his reply.
Anyway, it's haemoglobin, or no, a haem group but whatever. And these are my reasons:

• I'm anaemic
• I'm going to study medicine
• Haemoglobin has always been my favourite word
• Haemoglobin has always been my favourite protein
• It's structure is so pretty!
• Haemoglobin is just my "thing".

Hahaha, I just realized whilst writing that... it's my blog title for fucks sake, you'd think it's my thing.
It's not just to get a tattoo... I want this tattoo. And I have for yonks. So no discussion.
So yeah, I'll be getting that done soon, as soon as Carl Zimmer answers my email.

Now something I'd like to share. I made this t-shirt for my dad. He's a photographer.
It looks like it was hard work or something, but it wasn't really. One pen, 30 minutes max.. so not such a big deal. But he liked it so yay.

And finally, on to the really important stuff.
Don't dye your hair turquoise. Bleach, brown dye, black dye, red dye, purple dye, pink dye, orange dye, they were fine, but stupid turqouise really pushed my hair over the edge. It's straw, absolute straw. I'm sick of the colour too. Purple was really fun because it was kind of... mysterious and dark, pink I loved because it was girly and cute and whatever, but turquoise is just.... ew. It's my favourite colour, but just not for hair, seriously. It doesn't suit anyone it doesn' t look good with any other colours and it's just a pain in the ass. Like, you can only wear black otherwise you already look too colourfull, it makes you incredibly pale and... oh I don't know I just want rid of it. Don't do it. Waste of money.

So the dyes I have left are: Alpine Green, Dandelion, Midnight Blue, Violet and Poppy red.
I'm not touching blue/green tones again anytime soon, I've had purple, I'm not dying my entire hair yellow and I'm not putting up with the fight against red again. (it just does not come out) So, I decided to take a break, and go back to boring old black.

Ohhhh I don't want to really. Halp.

"Why do you smell of earth?"

Yesterday I was in the city with Jana. We go into a headshop for her to buy papers. We leave the store and this girl follows us and goes: "Which one of you smells like that? What is that?" I'm like:
"I don't know, sniff us and find out who it is" I offer her my neck and she steps back and goes: "Eeew no I don't want to smell you"
Me: "Okay..... fine...."
Jana: "It's her, she smells of Patchouly!"
Girl: "Why does that smell like earth?"
Jana: "They put it on dead people" *makes sprinkling movements over imaginary corpse*
Eva: "I don't know... it just does, it's a plant"
Girl: "Where can you get that?"
Eva: "Gothic shops...." Girl jumps back again and raises eyebrows
"It's like, a normal perfume though. You can get patchouly oil like........... anywhere"
Girl: "Um, okay" Makes disgusted face and walks away swiftly.


Hahahah, what the fuck was that? It was hilarious. Jana compared it to someone coming up to you and going: "Wow! Where did you get your shoes?"
you tell them and then they give you a bitch look and are like: "Okaaay, if YOU like them..."
Ah you had to see her do it. So funny.

Terminal Preppie

Some of the best lyrics ever by, you guessed it, the Dead Kennedys.
Quite a simple song, but so fitting to that typical Preppy type that one can find, for example, all over my school. The only song that is even more fitting, is Little Boxes by Malvina Reynolds.
So I will post both, for your enjoyment.



I go to college
That makes me so cool
I live in a dorm
And show off by the pool

I join the right clubs
Just to build an impression
I block out thinking
It won't get me ahead

My ambition in life
Is to look good on paper
All I want is a slot
In some big corporation

John Belushi's my hero
I lampoon and I ape him
My news of the world
Comes from Sports Illustrated

I'm proud of my trophies
Like my empty beer cans
Stacked in rows up the wall
To impress all my friends
(Except that over here, replace the beer cans with vodka bottles, Absolut or Grey Goose or whatever is the most expensive "in" thing these days)

No, I'm not here to learn
I just want to get drunk
And major in business
And be taught how to fuck

Win! Win!
I always play to win
Wanna fit in like a cog
In the faceless machine

I'm a terminal terminal terminal preppie
terminal terminal terminal preppie
terminal terminal terminal terminal
terminal terminal terminal terminal

I want a wife with tits
Who just smiles all the time
In my centerfold world
Filled with Springsteen and wine

Some day I'll have power
Some day I'll have boats
A tract in some suburb
With Thanksgivings to host

I'm a terminal terminal terminal preppie
terminal terminal terminal preppie
terminal terminal terminal preppie

Pretty self explanatory.

Little Boxes




Little boxes on the hillside, Little boxes made of tickytacky

Little boxes on the hillside, little boxes all the same
There's a green one and a pink one and a blue one and a yellow one
And they're all made out of ticky tacky and they all look just the same.

And the people in the houses all went to the university
Where they were put in boxes and they came out all the same,
And there's doctors and there's lawyers, and business executives
And they're all made out of ticky tacky and they all look just the same.

And they all play on the golf course and drink their martinis dry,
And they all have pretty children and the children go to school
And the children go to summer camp and then to the university
Where they are put in boxes and they come out all the same.

And the boys go into business and marry and raise a family
In boxes made of ticky tacky and they all look just the same.

And you think, God, she is the biggest hypocrite ever. She's going to be a MED STUDENT, she's PART OF the bourgeoisie she so hates. SHE'S going to be the one playing golf soon. Well come on, do you seriously think that you can't be a med student with these views? I'm not studying medicine to get rich for fucks sake. I grew up in Germany, doctors here earn fuck all. A good plumber can earn as much as a doctor. I'm studying medicine because I'm INTERESTED. Because I like working with people, and because as corny as it sounds I want to help. Not even save lives... A doctor heals sometimes, relieves often and comforts always. I want to comfort. And of course because I'm a terrible approval seeker and quite insecure and believe my family will actually stop loving me if I don't become a doctor but yeah. Because I want to heal.
Also, I have turquoise hair!


Oh my God. I have a HUGE head. And I did not overexpose this photo... I'm just very, very pale. That's also, by the way, why this blog is called haemoglobin. I'm anaemic. And haemoglobin is my favourite word. And a beautiful molecule. In fact, I'm getting it tattooed on my arm as soon as I can afford it.

Bye bye

Organic Food - The dirty, untreated truth (?)

From an environmental point of view, yes, organic food is the way to go. It's true, pesticides and fertilisers pollute. But what annoys me to no end, is when people think they are making a "healthy" choice by ONLY eating organic food.
ONLY: People who think their organic food claim constitutes some kind of superiority over all of us conventionally-farmed-food-consuming-subordinates, usually also say they ONLY eat organic food. Fair enough, if it's true, but to me, most of the time, this sounds like pure snobbery. That sense of exclusitivity "Only X is good enough for me" makes it a little obvious that they are using organic food as a way to prove they are somehow better, the enlightened consumer.

They claim they do it because it's healthy, and eating food treated with pesticides and fertilisers is dangerous. Well, in fact, there is ABSOLUTELY NO PROOF that organic food is healthier. Also, have any of these people ever heard of government guidelines? At least in the EU we can be 100% sure that nothing sold in the fruit & veg section of the supermarket is so "poisoned" that it can actually cause disease. Do they seriously think that nobody thought about the dangers of pesticides but them?
DDT is GONE! Dead and gone. Stop driving yourselves crazy.
This is the test they use to see whether the chemicals they use are harmful: They find a dose that's completely safe for rats, and then divide that by 100.
I'm sorry, but I trust that.
And think about this: If farming chemicals really were so dangerous, the people who'd be affected most would be the farmers, right? Well, there have been studies done on that and nope, no results. NEGATIVE.
Besides, plants make their own pesticides too! Caffeine is a pesticide, for example. I quote:
"Even the freshest organic apples – as well as other plant foods – contain natural compounds which, when extracted and given to rats in high doses, cause tumours. Toxicologist Bruce Ames of the University of California became famous in the 1970s for sounding the alarm on the cancer-causing (or carcinogenic) potential of man-made chemicals.

But after testing 'natural' pesticides in rats, he called off the warning. A paper he published in 1990 said it all. Entitled, "Dietary Pesticides (99.99 per cent All Natural)", it reported that in a regular diet, people consume about 10,000 times more natural carcinogens than synthetic ones. According to Ames, a single cup of coffee contains more natural carcinogens than a year's worth of the pesticide residues eaten on fruit and vegetables."

And the cherry on top is, that the fertilisers organic farmers use are in no way harmless either! They use sulphur, copper, BT spray, pyethrins, spinosad. Aha, sulphur irritates the lungs, and rotenone has been proven to cause Parkinsons disease in rats. Harmless eh?
And of course toxic moulds are the most powerful carcinogens in existence. How safe are we from them without fungicides?
Natural is better... pfft... better is better.

I quote again:
"And as a flurry of papers cited in Faidon Magkos's review will attest, organic food has been subject to its own food scares. There have been bacterial outbreaks which have been blamed on the fact that organic production involves manure but not antibacterial techniques such as food irradiation or chemical washes. Another concern is the growth of moulds such as aflatoxin B1, commonly found on mouldy peanuts and one of the most carcinogenic compounds known to exist. Among the most notorious recent toxic mould scares was one linked to organic apple juice, where levels of the toxin patulin were 10 times greater than those found in regular apple juice. Levels of the mould toxin deoxynivalenol have also been reported to be higher in organic wheat. Because organics are not treated with fungicides, there is a higher risk of these toxins creeping in."

Let's get to the point, in my opinion, the whole organic food hype is just another way for the upper classes to elevate themselves.
Organic food is expensive, exclusive.... "special". I can't afford it, and I would say I'm quite "well off". It's simple, in every product we buy, there is a class system. You can buy a toothbrush for 89 cents, you can buy a toothbrush for 10€. But before the whole organic thing, this class system was hardly present in fruit. How much would that piss you off if you were rich? You have a better car, a better house, better clothes, fancier appliances, fancier phone, but you still have to eat the same fruit that the "scum of society" eats, the minions, your subjects.
So then, the whole organic food thing starts and finally you can say "I pay more for my fruit and vegetables because they're healthier" Obviously the health thing is a farse, really what they're saying is: "I pay more for my fruit and vegetables, because I can (muhahahahha)"
The fact is, if the whole world where to adopt organic farming, if any other kind of farming were outlawed 1. More forests would have to be cleared for organic manure 2. We would all fucking starve to death 3. How much easier would it be for pests or fungi to wipe out an entire crop?
Pesticides and fungicides were invented for a reason, or not? Anyone heard of the potato famine?

"Historically, most food-related diseases are due to bacterial and fungal contamination, so in terms of health consciousness, focussing on pesticides is probably barking up the wrong tree."

So basically, whenever one of you snobby ass hardcore organic food advocates comes out with one of your "I only eat organic" statements, prepare for a whipping.

Seriously, you'd think someone as left as me would be totally pro organic farming. And I AM, I'm only anti the people who a. Support it for wholly the wrong reasons b. Think it would be sustainable worldwide.
And of course the people who claim they can "taste the difference" seriously, that is the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard. And I went to private school.

I care about what food I buy. I don't eat red meat for one thing and try not to go overboard with the wheat products. That is because of their carbon footprint. I try to decrease my carbon footprint in many, many ways. Organic food however (except organic meat, which I will pay more for is available) is not an option for me. Too expensive, and seriously, does anyone ever look at the quality of the tiny, bruised organic produce? The runts of the produce isle. Why? No genetic engineering? Well if I heard food has not been genetically modified, I seriously wonder whether i'm getting value for my money. I WANT science to have gone into my food.

If I were a farmer, I would farm using organic methods, but I am a consumer and when I consider the value of the food I buy, organic food consistently is of inferior value. Plus, I'm not rich. I CAN'T spend 10-40% more on food. I simply can't. To those of you who can, knock yourselves out, but don't you dare adopt that holier+healthier (WEALTHIER) than thou attitude and start preaching to everyone else about it. It's a choice! If you are so deluded that you think you can "taste the difference" then seriously, there is no use talking to you about it.

I hate the rich. I hate the idea of "lifestyle". It aggravates me to no end.


(And I mean VALUE not price not quality, VALUE)

Sources: http://www.cosmosmagazine.com/features/print/1567/organic-food-exposed?page=0%2C4